Living the Dream, For Real

I no longer seek depth, healing, calling out, wanting, validation, and chasing more.

What I have learned... What we seek we don’t find.

What we are with and can be with, we transform. What dimension and pace are you operating at?

Are you seeking beyond your soul’s discovery? Are your experiences an embodied part of you? OR are you deep diving into story seeking, sticking your finger in the wound endlessly, or addicted to the healing?

That is the shift going from striving and knowing to integrating it all. Take your hand from reaching, to place it on your heart and feel.

AND BREATHE, FEEL YOURSELF, FEEL YOUR HEART BEATING

When you begin to enjoy, to just be with the present moment… You see everything you need is already here.

There are many tools and supports right?! Plants, akashic records, energy healing, meditation, yoga, pilates, birth charts, shadow work human design, mirrors, gurus, shamans, therapist of the mind, heart, body, and soul… they all have their place and deliver so much.

But at what point do we seek more than we need?

At what point is the knowledge not yet living in our bodies?

At what point do we forget to trust the Source of all things is delivering through our higher self all that we need.

Our daily life is simply all we need.

You can do what your soul came here to do if you can be with your dishes, your commute, the birds outside, the ants inside, that neighbor, coworker, or partner that does that thing that gets you, hits that trigger. Makes you aware. Alive.

Can you be with your discomfort?

Can you SEE that you are given something in every moment for your growth and transformation, if you can be here now?

There will always be a time for you to explore, to rewild, to howl with your brothers or sisters in ceremonies, nightlife, and in the sacred. But don’t go chasing or seeking.

Screaming into the ocean

Pedaling through pouring rain

Speaking terrifying truths Crying out from my heart

Purging on my hands + knees

Standing in community feeling utterly alone

Teaching myself to regulate

And to Forgive

Traveling to the Beyond on breath and medicine

Walking invisibly

Swallowing bitter pills

Seeing death in new ways

Letting my hair grow natural

Making peace with my body

I still am

Loving myself anyway

Sitting in uncomfortable seats + conversations

Working to learn language and understand culture but feeling at home

Making friends that were lessons

Groaned through womb work

Hottest sweat lodge to date but didn’t die in the heat

Stood in my power and questioned myself all at once

Soothing my soul on local fare

Talking to the trees

Nature visiting my doorstep

Let my whole being sing as if my life depended on it.

To finally be who I was created to be.

And am I done?

No, but I am proof of it all, as the experiences live in me.

And why is this different?

Because this depth called to me.

And I never questioned it.

I am living my dream not because I am in Costa Rica but because I have become all of me.