Do things really change?

Aqua and purple, all the cool tones used to be my favorite colors, now it’s canary yellow, terracotta, or orange-red. When I think of colors, I always think of their names on the Crayola crayon 64 color box. I’ve got two tattoos on the portion I got removed and tattooed again and now I love it. It’s a peony which is symbolic of love, honor, happiness, abundance, and beauty.

Around this time last year I had a whole different group of women in my sphere and I felt very alone. This year I am opening more and more to the feeling that my home is within me, not a location on a map or a place with a certain vibe. That can all change in a heartbeat. And now daily more Soul Family arrives.

And I don’t feel invisible anymore because I see me and my worth. It never occurred to me as a therapist I was kind of a blank slate, a secret, and that is how I felt being adopted or somewhat hidden. I used to not eat yogurt. Now I love it and I can eat it because my ideas around health have changed. I believe dis-ease causes diseases and that they are caused by our thoughts, beliefs, and suppressed emotions. I no longer have food allergies.

Some people say things never change, or not in my lifetime… but I would say in the 46 years I have been alive many things have changed.

I have lived in Ohio, Minnesota, California, Colorado, and Costa Rica. 3 years ago I had several businesses and ran around like a spinning top from place to place supporting others and trying undercover to arn my worth. Then the pandemic came and look at how many people have shifted and awakening and the world has changed. And now I live in Costa Rica, shifting how I do everything.

But even longer ago…I remember a time before ATM’s, microwaves, social media, cell phones, and the internet. I remember a time where my grandmother walked everywhere because she never learned to drive, and when not having tv was unthinkable.

I have different values and beliefs as well but the interesting thing as I awaken more and more I am returning to a feeling I had in my body when I was 4… that I knew what was important, I could use my imagination and be creative, I didn’t worry about what people thought about me, and that I like my body and feel safe in it. More and more I am growing unaware of standards or what people think about me in all the best ways. I am excited about what is to come and how to manifest and create with all the aspects of myself that are coming back.

Someone asked the other day what do you mean healing is over? And I replied sometimes after we truly feel the hard feelings and shift our mindsets we can put them down. And when we are done with the lesson we can be done. It doesn’t always feel good or bad now I just think of this as life happening and I get to see how my body feels and what is a hell yes or hell no.

I know everyone isn’t here but this is what we are for each other and eventually we learn and share what we have learned and these our gifts. What frequency we do it at and how we do it is what makes it unique. My energetic field has its own unique frequency.

So things do change, the world is changing massively now… this is what we came for. Sending blessings for clarity and shifting from the mind and unease to intuition and light. xx